If I could give up my love of Elbahn's worship, I almost believe I would. I treat my faith like chains in private, but there is a reason why I wear this coin around my neck and why I smile around any who show interest.
If I could, I would give up all of my secrets to them...but they would hate me. I'm surprised dear Wren did not leave when I told him of Salria...and in fact, he wishes to meet my family! Most likely so he can tell them off for, in his words, 'treating me so badly.' I'm...not treated badly! I love my family and they can be demanding and unyielding, but I love them! However, sometimes I wonder if any but the children and my sisters Lina and Igraine love me anymore. And even then, their affection is sketchy...
Yet that holds no weight with me! I am stronger than that, and I have Wren and a few boys whose company I enjoy quite a bit. It is a bit annoying, however, that my life lacks a significant female presence. The closest thing I have to a female friend anymore is Sulky Sylken, and that is saying something truly tragic. I've not the slightest clue where Jayln has gotten herself to, and it isn't like we were actually friends anyhow...she was more Wren's friend than mine.
It seems Wren has better luck with befriending women, whilst I can only worship with them and then never see them again. Dear boy seems slightly upset that he cannot seem to get into a bed (or broom closet) with any of them, though. I suppose we have opposite problems.
Love lost as time came...
...plays heartstrings and mindgames...
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